A Small "Tender Mercy"

 

My hair has come in a bit curly after falling out with the chemo. I've never been able to even curl or perm my hair. How fun!

This is a "tender mercy" to me to feel a little more feminine at this time when I need to have a double mastectomy and am unable to do reconstruction. It reminds me that the Lord knows and loves me each time I look in the mirror.

What is helping me make it through cancer

I have been thinking about what is helping me the most to make it through dealing with cancer. Of course my faith has to come first. I simply couldn't do this at all without the Lord helping me. Also, there is all the love and support I am receiving from my husband, and family and friends. I feel their prayers holding me up. These are all wonderful blessings and essential to my life and fight with cancer, but there is also something else which is helping me. This is what I have been thinking of this morning. It is having a positive attitude.

I confess that it does take some effort to think positively when going through cancer treatments, but it is making it much easier for me. I feel a sense of hope, power, and energy as I think positively. This sense of power seems to come from being closer to God and from not feeling like a victim. I don't need to have the Lord give me ease to know that He loves me, or succumb to helplessness if I'm not given what I want when I want it. Though I didn't choose to have cancer (who would!), I am not merely a victim in life, for I can still choose how I respond to it.