How I am feeling now the my cancer has come back

Even though my cancer is no longer in remission, I am feeling better than I
have in a very long time. A month ago I was having more trouble eating, having bad heartburn, and not only losing my appetite, but I was also losing weight which I couldn't afford to do. I was getting to the point where I was having trouble walking out to our vehicle. The fatigue was increasing and I was becoming weaker. The headaches were getting worse, and I experienced dizziness when I stood or walked. I was also having sharp chest pains and was out of breath when I did just a little bit. The toughest thing for me was the depression. I'd see or hear something, then suddenly burst into tears. My husband encouraged me to drink more water so I wouldn't get dehydrated! (He also gave me plenty of hugs.) 

Thoughts a Few Days Before my Double Mastectomy

I feel a bit like I have been getting ready for a safari. I've had to get supplies together, study the route, and make a plan to meet the challenges. I know it will be exhausting, uncomfortable, painful, and even dangerous, but it will also be worth it. I trust my guide, and have a strong companion to go with me. All is nearly ready to begin. 

Yes, I'm physically prepared. I have discussed the possible problems with my surgeon. My home is clean, food is stocked up and meals cooked. Also, I  have old comedy videos to help divert me afterward from the trauma my body is experiencing. I have also been spiritually preparing through daily reading of the scriptures, praying, and listening to General Conference talks.