As my eyesight dimmed, I thought of this funny video. It is about a woman who judges her neighbor, only to find that it was her own dirty window that was at fault. I've felt as if I have been looking at life through "dirty windows". After my eye surgery, I left my blurry, dull, yellow-gray existence behind me, waking the next morning to a world filled with stunning beauty. This emotional experience has reminded me to look for the good, to clean my own negative "dirty windows", so I that can not only see the the outer beauty, but the inner beauty in the people around me.
I just read the book of Job and thought, “I identify with him”. Gratefully, I haven’t had to face the loss of all my children, and financial ruin, but I have had some rough times. When Job felt so rotten that he wished he hadn’t been born, I know that feeling. Before it was discovered that I had Addison’s disease (very low Adrenal function), I was sick to my stomach, ached, could barely move, had smashing headaches, couldn’t focus, remember, think or sleep well, and was depressed. Day and night merged. I never felt really awake nor asleep.